My dead self

My dead self What is there to say about my dead self, myself that is dead, my…dead….self. It comes and goes but is never fully gone I personally don’t like being dead but then the dead part is not only me It is like having a dead limb but then it is not a limb … Continue reading →

Repost-LivingWith Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) BY NATHAN C. DANIELS

LivingWith Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) AUGUST 1, 2013 BY NATHAN C. DANIELS Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), not to be confused with Bipolar Disorder, is the most consistently challenging condition I struggle to live with. For the benefit of myself, and others like me, I’m going to explore this life-threatening disorder. I’ll present information and offer … Continue reading →

Teaching prisoners *trigger warning*

I taught art at a few prisons about 10 years ago. The weird thing is I never got to teach in any female prisons, only male ones. I was only 21 and I think in the end they taught me more then I taught them! I trained them in fabric painting, design, papier mache and … Continue reading →

Broken open

“Broken Open” by ADAM LAMBERT Broken pieces, break into me So imperfectly what you should be I don’t want you to go Don’t wanna see you back out in the cold Air you’re breathing out fades you to grey Don’t run away, find me I know the battles of chasing the shadows of who you … Continue reading →

I don’t want to be a succulent!

I am a bit hesitant to put down this in words, but I think if I don’t I am going to back out. It is still winter and hence very cold but in keeping with my new found freedom, I have decided that I am no longer allowed to be a TV sloth. I need … Continue reading →

Take your hand off my arse or I’ll bash your head in! **Trigger warning!**

This might not have been the most mature reaction, but I am still very proud of myself. I will have to give you a little history and context… When I broke off with a girlfriend because I felt then that it was inconsistent with my belief system, I went to counselling with a lady in … Continue reading →

Defensive projective identification (a psychological process by which a person projects his or her own thoughts and beliefs onto a third party)

Psychoanalysis has been called the science of unconscious processes. Adaptive interactions with other humans take place on both conscious and unconscious levels. The concept of receiving the unconscious communications of others is something very familiar to trauma survivors but not always articulated. Klein’s concept of projective identification attempts to model how an unconscious system acts … Continue reading →

Self harm *TRIGGER WARNING*

TRIGGER WARNING!!! I have wanted to write this post for a long time but haven’t been ready…until now. I want to talk about self-harm, my self-harm and that of others. My story has been repeated over and over again, and so even though we are all unique, the patterns play out like a damaged record. … Continue reading →

Warning label

I think I should come with a warning label that reads “this product is not intended for use in long – term relationships. “ Continue reading →

Attachment disorder explained (BPD)

I have been trying desperately not to bond with my lovely therapist (subconcsiously of course). This month I will have been seeing her for 2 full years. I think I have bonded slightly though… Kudos to her ;0) The reason I didn’t want to ‘get close’ as it were, was because I have this terrible … Continue reading →